This is my 10th blog in a row. And I'm stuck. Why?
Because I know what to write but I don't know what to write.
That makes no sense. Let me explain.
The day I started, I had no idea what I'm doing. I'm no writer. I've no writing experience. I knew that already. That is why I never expected anything from this blog posts anyways. I thought this is just another one of my new escapades, which usually lasts for a week or so and then slips away into the void of my "Things I can't believe I did" memories.
But something happened in the last 9 days. Let me show you:
I found real people online who were interested to read my stuff. It was unbelievable. Here's my post from yesterday:
498 people reached? WHAT?
My total post reach for this week is 7000? HOLY SHIT! (And that's just facebook. :O)
HOLY SHIT, I'm freaking out. I've officially entered into a self-destructive, constructive, over-demanding mode, where I force myself to weigh my words before I write. My writing has to be relevant. It has to be insightful. It has to get more likes. :P
This is a whole new responsibility which I wasn't prepared for. I never ever thought twice before ever hitting that publish button in past 9 days. But today, it took me 3 hours to write that first line. And what did I write? "This is my 10th blog in a row." What? That's the best I got?
I feel I have so much to talk about. Funding, Hiring, Building Culture, Bootstrapping, blah blah blah, all the things that I learnt by failing in my startup journey.
I know what to write, but I don't know if I should write it. I look at the profiles of the people who follow me or like my posts and assume a lot of things. A lot of them are IIT students, small business professionals or even kids who're just entering college. Some readers know a lot and some are just naïve. What's the best advice I could possibly give them without putting them off?
Perhaps I could start a whole new category where I write practical life skills posts for the kids just entering college with an interest in entrepreneurship. For more experienced, I could write genuine advice from my startup experiences.
All of this requires time. Perhaps commitment more than time. I'm re-evaluating a lot of my decisions. Decisions that I took that led me to this dilemma. Is this Self Criticism or Writer's block, I don't know. Will this get better? I don't know. What will I write about tomorrow? I don't know.
I believe it is a good thing though. I have found another cloudy path to cut through. This is what entrepreneurship is all about. Figuring things out. And figure it out, I shall.